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Good Grief

by Sanyu Estelle

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reiki_rae My favorite track is "Bout It". Congratulations on completing your first album!!! I'm looking forward to all the creative endeavors that you birth in the future! đŸ„° Favorite track: Bout It (feat. Pack Bundy & Nakeiltha "Nikki" Campbell).
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ziloetamusic The lyrics of this album are as full of depth and life as the music itself, which is a rare thing to find. I especially love the intriguing harmonies and vocal layers that Sanyu has created. Looking forward to hearing and seeing what even more amazing work is in the future, Favorite track: Ancestors/Colonizers.
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1.
Hey Sanyu It's Dad Please call me back Thank you
2.
You think you know my city You think you know her name Thought you'd land in Hollywood But you in LA County Land stewards the Tongva And the Chumash upstream That's when LA had water Now the river concrete First colonized by the Spaniards They sent missionaries Most mestizo or mulatto Means Europe was rapin' New Spain thought they could get in In 1821 Called it Alta California Land of the setting sun British don't know how to share Waged war with Mexico Claimed California, America And let her people go The Chinese built that railroad Then men came searching for gold Used up they privilege and hope Most then became drunkards Lost Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles Lost Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles Lost Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles Lost Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles You came here to make it You came here to make it But will LA break you But will LA break you Wagoned women, children in Misery loves company More genocide and war Then came the United States Ratified questionable All based upon enslavement But then this slice of coast Stated in 1850 In 1876 The railroad reached LA's shores Little did we know That would bring Kinney and Tabor roads By the turn of the century Anglo pop done struck black gold Mad racist and trifling They used up all they water resources You seen that film Chinatown That movie cishet as what One thing it keeps real real LA been corrupt as fuck So now the land stewards less The cops basic terrorists Black, Brown locked in prisons Classism segregates us Lost Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles Lost, lost, lost, lost In Los Angeles Tired of people walking 'round Running they whole entire mouths As if they hometown hold the crown Talking my whole ass city down What do you know about LA You just moved here to make it Claim we shallow and we sin But, Bitch! Whose city you in Tired of people walking 'round Talking my whole city down Running they whole entire mouths As if they hometown hold the crown Tired of people walking round Talking my whole city down Running they whole entire mouths As if they hometown hold the crown LiLA, please LiLA, please Please have some humility LiLA, please LiLA, please Please have some humility Have some fucking humility And welcome to Los Angeles
3.
Wake up in the morning Then I promptly greet my Ori And tell it of all the things For which I'm grateful Greet my Ancestors Then do my breathing exercises 'Fore I sing Because my Papa is my Angel Make tea, face, then shower Where I take my time to Contemplate dreams I remember from the night prior Pick a fit Coconut oil on me Put my shoes on Exit to the world And I am just getting started What you know about it What you know about it What you know about it Started What you know about it What you know about it What you know about it Bout it What? What? Bout it What? What? Bout it What? What? Bout this body It ain't just my body that work It also be my state of mind Diligently I work at both My character of consistent kind You want me to lay this down Just 'cause you deigned to turn an eye What you ever come up on Didn't satisfy you with a lie You think you entitled To all this good lookin' I put in Can't even meet my mind And you think you'll match me Skin for skin The cockacity Where to begin What you tell, I already listen I already listen I already listen I already listen Listen, listen Bout it What? What? Bout it What? What? Bout it What? What? Bout this body First Don't get it twisted Perception is for the wicked I gave you a little attention Don't confuse this pimping With simping Was digging that intuition But your mental got you reaching I was checking the temp No need to be deceitful So please just keep it peaceful Spoken words like I'm beneath you We get you we know you equal These queens and goddesses see thru I swear to God I believe you Don't understand why the ruthlessness We live and we die No room for all the arguments Technically why your heart in it Analyzing the thoughts No ADHD But damn yo ass is off I get it cuz I'm a boss You can front all you want I'm looking in your eyes I can see what you want That body I know you want this Body Yea, Bundy Body You know you want me baby Bundy be driving you crazy Bundy be driving you crazy Bout it What? What? Bout it What? What? Bout it What? What? Bout this body
4.
You invent You invent You invent You invent You invent You invent You invent You invent You invent Power of a God Power of a God You invent a problem By how you perceive it Then you find how you solve them By taking ownership But not everybody wanna Do what is needed So we find we get caught up With personal baggage You don't really want You don't really want it Power of a God You would just flaunt it You don't really want You don't really want it Power of a God Power of a God PrometheU.S. You don't really want it Power of a God You would just flaunt it PrometheU.S. You don't really want it Power of a God Haunted, haunted You amuse me But don't move me I'm a muse, see So don't mute me You confront a problem By how it comes through Then you find how you resolve it By doing the work But not everybody gonna Be real as fuck So we find what we got Is how we show up You don't really want You don't really want it Power of a God You would just flaunt it You don't really want You don't really want it Power of a God Power of a God PrometheU.S. You don't really want it Power of a God You would just flaunt it PrometheU.S. You don't really want it Power of a God Haunted, haunted You amuse me But don't move me I'm a muse, see So don't mute me I got what I asked for I got what I wish Power of a God Ain't just talking big shit (You amuse) I got what I asked for I got what I wish Power of a God Ain't just talking big shit (You amuse) I got what I asked for I got what I wish Power of a God Ain't just talking big shit (But don't lose) I got what I asked for I got what I wish Power of a God Ain't just talking big shit (But don't lose) You don't really want You don't really want Power of a God Power of a God You don't really want You don't really want Power of a God Power of a God You don't really want You don't really want it I got what I asked for I got what I wish (You amuse, Power of a God) You don't really want You don't really want it I got what I asked for I got what I wish (You amuse, Power of a God) PrometheU.S. You don't really want it I got what I asked for I got what I wish (But don't lose, Power of a God) PrometheU.S. You don't really want it I got what I asked for I got what I wish (But don't lose, Power of a God) You invent You invent You invent You invent You invent Power of a God You invent You invent You invent You invent You invent Power of a God Power of a God Power of a God Power of a God Power of a God
5.
So what if I'm a fool So what, am I a fool So what if I'm a fool So what, am I a fool If I say I line my edges With bee's honey Baby, would it make you Sweet, sweet, sweet, sweet, sweet On me Could you believe it If it was that I'm your Ace Risk it all with me, Baby Don't play it safe Once you grab my hand We're going deep Careful, don't let go 'Cause I'm Pisces Petty I ain't waiting for you All the long, long day Boy, don't play me I'm no video game Boy, I'm no video game (I ain't no video game) I ain't no I ain't no video game (Whoa, no) I said I'm no (I said I) I said I'm no (I said I) Boy I'm no video game (I ain't no video game) I ain't no video game I ain't no video game I ain't no video game I ain't no video game Don't play me Whatever
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Crown, crown, crown, crown, crown Crown, crown, crown, crown, crown Crown, crown, crown, crown, crown Crown, crown, crown, crown, crown You thought you were onto something You thought you were on your way Because you were rat racing, baby Yes, you planned to play the game So you didn't see it comin' And now you feel hella betrayed But when 2020 started It came to rule its days And it don't owe you nothing What? You thought you was safe Because you fell in line Guess life done raised the stakes So was it that you fronted Will you still have it made Or is it your life's purpose Depends on being paid Ain't no precedent Ain't nobody owed nothing You want that future It's hanging in the wind Don't expect something Be on the road to it Age of Aquarius Volatility is the sitch Volatility is the sitch Take the Crown Hate the Crown Make the Crown Want something comforting A risk you can predict Said you wish things were "normal" On your regular bitch You ain't see the tide come in Fixate, low awareness Don't want to pay attention This why you feel basic The times they are a-changing Won't nothing be the same Nostalgia makes cute movies But it won't keep you sane Sorry, is this a buzzkill Did you want to forget That Existence made you up And humans said you ain't shit Ain't no precedent Ain't nobody owed nothing You want that future It's hanging in the wind This not personal It's about the collective Age of Aquarius You better master yourself You better master yourself You better master yourself Take the Crown Hate the Crown Make the Crown Should the Earth bend to your will If you won't bend too Did you evolve on the Earth Or Earth revolve around you You imagined you were owed You felt like things were due But if you make the Crown That Crown will mold you too Ain't no precedent Ain't nobody owed nothing You want that future It's hanging in the wind Don't expect something Be on the road to it Age of Aquarius End of the Crown Affair End of the Crown Affair End of the Crown Affair Thought you were onto something Thought you were on your way You were rat racing, baby You planned to play the game And it don't owe you nothing What? You thought you was safe Because you fell in line Guess life done raised the stakes Guess life done raised the stakes Guess life done raised the stakes Guess life done raised the stakes Don't expect something Be on the road to it Age of Aquarius End of the Crown Affair End of the Crown Affair End of the Crown Affair
7.
I want you to know I literally came downstairs Into the closet To leave this message for you We can fuck Or we can not fuck But do not fuck with me Because I want that BLEEP Very, very, very much And if I can't have it Then I don't want to be teased with it Point, blank, period Okay Just, be a friend Or don't be a friend But don't make a premature decision Out of your sense of responsibility And then fuck with me Because I can make my own responsible decisions I don't need a babysitter I announce these things So that you would respect my transparency Not so that you would cut me off at the legs So either give it to me Or don't But don't fucking play Play Play Play Play Play Play Play Play
8.
Lyin' 06:37
Wore my heart on my sleeve And you turned it inside out Tried to show you my world But you turned it upside down Nothing is what it seems When it comes out your mouth And even the things you mean Never come back around You like a tragedy And you want me To be a part of that story But I got out Got out Got out Got out But I got out (Got out) Got out Got out Got out But I got out (Got out) You like a tragedy And you want me To be a part of that story But I got out Got out Got out (But I got out) Got out But I got out (But I got out) Got out Got out (But I got out) Got out But I got out You like a tragedy And you want me To be a part of that story But I got out, out, out You never told me it straight Never gave up no ground Told me it's just that way As if you liked the sound And if you made a mistake It's almost like they make you proud So, Baby, what can I say When you tell me I'm too loud You don't want me No, you don't want me And you couldn't even tell it to my face Ooo, you cowardly Ooo, you cowardly You lyin' You cowardly You lyin' You cowardly You You want me to give up the ghost Well, here's what I say I ain't never give up No. Not even today So you just deal with that Big ass elephant Up in this place And if you turn around now Please leave without a trace Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) You cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You cowardly You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) Why you lyin' to me Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) You cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You cowardly You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) Why you lyin' to me Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) You cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You cowardly You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) You want, you want, you want Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) But you cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) But you cowardly Ooo, you don't want me (please leave) You want me to believe everything you say (please leave) But you cowardly You want me to believe everything you say You You You You cowardly You You so cowardly You You so cowardly You You so cowardly You You so cowardly You You so cowardly You like a tragedy (You want me to believe everything you say) And you want me (You want me to believe everything you say) To be a part of that story But I got out But I got out (You want me to believe everything you say) You like a tragedy (But you cowardly, but you cowardly) And you want me (But you cowardly, but you cowardly) To be a part of that story But I got out (But you cowardly, but you cowardly) But I got out You like a tragedy (You want me to believe everything you say) And you want me (You want me to believe everything you say) To be a part of that story (But you cowardly, but you cowardly) But I got out (But you cowardly, but you cowardly) But I got out You like a tragedy (But you cowardly, but you cowardly) And you want me (You lyin' to me, you lyin' to me, you lyin' to me) To be a part of that story (But you cowardly, but you cowardly) But I got out (You want me to believe everything you say) But I got out (You want me to believe everything you say) Ooooo You so cowardly Why you lyin' to me You lyin' to me Why you lyin' to me You lyin' to me You so cowardly You so cowardly Ooooo Ooooo Ooooo Ooooo Ooooo Ooooo
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Got my cards on the table Don't know how I'm able To know what I know But they show what they show I don't see it all comin' I just get wind of it Think that help with my road That's not how the Unknown goes That's not how the Unknown goes That's not how the Unknown goes That's not how the Unknown goes I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at Don't worry where it comes from Just note where it's relevant Suspend your disbelief Tell me what you perceive Here's the lay of the land I speak in trance speech Didn't get what you want But is it true what I read I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at (I gotta, You gotta, We gotta, I gotta) I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at (I gotta, You gotta, We gotta, I gotta) I gotta deal, I gotta deal, I gotta deal I gotta deal with where I'm at, I gotta deal with where I'm at Yes, I'm a soothsayer Just a truth conveyor Make no apologies For sayin' what I see You want it to be logic But sense is artistry 'Cause you need what you want And don't want what you need You should want what you need Don't you want what you need Won't you want what you need You should want what you need (Deal, deal, deal, deal, deal) You should want what you need Don't get a reading with me (Deal, deal, deal, deal, deal) You should want what you need (Deal, deal, deal, deal, deal) You should want what you need Don't get a reading with me (Deal, deal, deal, deal, deal) If you don't want what you need You gotta deal with where you at (Deal) You gotta deal with where you at (Deal) You gotta deal with where you at (Deal) You gotta deal with where you at (Deal) You gotta (Deal) Got my cards on the table Don't know how I'm able To know what I know But they show what they show Don't worry where it comes from Just note where it's relevant Suspend your disbelief Tell me what you perceive
10.
Have mercy upon me Ancestral spirits And spirit guides Spirits of the land Help me Help me Help me Help me
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They set out to sea To see what it could be 'Cause they had a need A hunger to feed Homeland wasn't a home So they sought the unknown Wanting to belong But they sang a different song Had it in their minds Everything I see is mine That gave them the spine To commit crime after crime Some call them Ancestors While some call them Colonizers But whatever moniker you prefer Remember they're humans first Some call them Liberators While some call them Devastators Whichever moniker that you prefer Your Ancestors laid the groundwork They thought life was cruel So they lived by those rules To us they look like fools When we could use them as tools The Quicker Mucker-Uppers Found out so you don't discover That terror has no cover And fear has few true lovers We had it in our minds Everything we see in time Has no relation to our crime But the results are divined What you reap Someone sowed Stop acting like you don't know How you got the privilege To act like you're better 'Cause Some call them Ancestors While some call them Colonizers But whatever moniker you prefer Remember they're humans first Some call them Liberators While some call them Devastators Whichever moniker that you prefer Your Ancestors laid the groundwork
12.
I'm not mad You're not wrong I'm not sad You're not strong These are just the stories I tell myself Since you won't say nothin' 'Cause you ain't even know How to show up Without being gone Listen I am in my element Ain't no use in comin' in Unless you can weather the storm Listen I'm a beast, no apology Eye the storm Or don't fuck with me Unless Unless Unless I'm not right You're not true But you're not me And I'm not you These are just the irreconcilable differences 'Cause neither of us Was mature enough To settle up Listen I am in my element Ain't no use in lyin' Because, because I'm done Listen I'm a beast, no apology Eye the storm Or don't fuck with me You will remember me Remember me when I'm gone Remember (You can weather the storm) Remember me when I'm gone (Unless) Remember (You can weather the storm) Remember me when I'm gone (Unless) Remember (You can weather the storm) Remember me when I'm gone (Unless) Remember (You can weather the storm) Remember me when I'm gone (Unless) Listen I am in my element Ain't not use in comin' in Unless Unless Unless Unless Unless You can weather the storm You can weather the storm You can weather You can weather You can Listen I am in my element Ain't no use in lyin' Because, because I'm done Listen I am in my element Ain't no use in comin' in Unless Unless Unless
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But as per my post today Actually, when I started listening I don't know if I told you this I started listening (I think I did) To dialogues with the future self And, after listening to Going mad And recreating yourself And what I'm realizing Is, like What I'm learning in each of these relationships Whether I know why they work or not What I'm learning Is to be more honest And to not be concerned With that You know It's like, it's one thing To, you know, tell someone Something important to you And then they make a mockery of it, right Um, not that it's a secret or anything But, like, to not be received in that way Um, but, instead I'm just like Oh, you know I, I want everyone to know How I feel about them When I die And If that just means I say it while it's there Then, I'm more comfortable with that Than ever And it feels more light than ever And more compassionate than ever But also, like, accessible Not from a suffering place And Maybe not even from a neutral place But from a kind of positive place Where I'm like, yea I am this way And, you gon' get this love Motherfuckers

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My debut album created in honor of my late father. He always thought I should be a musician; I just didn't see it for myself until he was gone. So this album is dedicated to my Papa, James William Byatesa Nagenda.

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released February 5, 2021

+ Lyrics & Vocals by Sanyu Estelle (www.instagram.com/sanyuestelle/)
+ Tracks by Kimchee Jones (www.instagram.com/kimcheejones/), Onegg Band (www.instagram.com/oneggband/), Love Ssega (www.instagram.com/lovessega/), Emilio Gabriel Caraballo (www.instagram.com/thesoundboo/) & Nikolos Jeremy Bacote
+ Mixed by Nikolos Jeremy Bacote
+ Graphics by 6 de Oro (www.instagram.com/6deoro/)
+ Photos by Acid Smile Studios (www.instagram.com/acidsmilestudios/)

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Sanyu Estelle Los Angeles, California

Sanyu Estelle is a pigmented, womoonist, cissy, flexible asexual, travel-apt and fashion forward SSJW (Sarcastic Social Justice Warrior). Born, bred n' buttered in Los Angeles, Sanyu has long held the woowoo job of reading people and now she sings her reads too!

Genres: Rhythm & Pop, Dance, Electronic, Electro-Pop, Neo-Soul, Synth-Pop, Electro, Spoken Word
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